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Name: Josh
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Pittsburgh
Birthday: 6/11/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: Loves of my Life -Drawing -Riding 4-Wheelers -Writing -Fucking up your day -Hanging out with Friends -Blood -Mud -Girls -Beer -Alchohol -FRIENDS -Music -Aquatic Animals -All other Animals -Laughing -Girls -FRIENDS -Fiji water -My cell phone -Money -MTV -BET (Me N Katie LoL) -Games -DVDS -FUCKING SCARY ASS MOVIES -Ghosts -Girls ------------------------
Hates of my Life -Divorce -Stuck up people -bipolar people -uncreative people -copiers -posers -Divorce -Not being able to see my Mom everyday
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Josh7809
Member Since:
10/19/2004
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| I are back ...how is everyone? I'm doing pretty shitty hah, nothing to new.
Things with my mom aren't very good-- i guess things just.....are blagh. i will explain later, sorry....
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| Ah yes...Xanga, boy how i have missed this. Myspace can fuck off...i deleted mine--it's only a starter for drama and other stupid shit. Things haven't been the greatest around the Yockey residence...things are tight with money being that my dad is now on strike at work. I mean yeah we have food in the cupboard so i guess i should be thankful, so i'm not gonna complain about that.
I have been living under, undiagnosed depressed since my mom left. She has a good life with her fiance about 45 minutes away. I get to see her as often as i can, usually once a week and i stay over there every other weekend...i really miss being with her and stuff like that. Things aren't as bad for me as they were a while ago. I'm over the whole "i'm depressed pay attention to me" stage. So i just kinda go with the flow anymore.
School hasn't been bad. School is schoool not much more to say about it.
Met some new people on the computer....i like it now that i have new people to talk to and some can relate for my situation...you should try it. | | |
| uh, hello again?
How is everyone? things aren't the greatest for me and my life. actually it rather sucks very bad right now. well the whole divorce thing is over and i know live two lives. one here and one over in butler with my mom. the divorce isn't really what i've wanted to complain about in this entry. it is more about highschool. or should i say advanced middle school. cause everyone is still acting like they are fucking 11 years old. WE'RE ARE FUCKING TEENAGERS NOW, WE SHOULD BE HAVING THE TIMES OF OUR LIVES, BUT NO WE'RE WORRIED ABOUT STUPID SHIT AND WHO SAID WHAT. honestly i swear i can't fucking take all of this shit anymore. i fucking hate it so bad. i just wanna fucking move over to butler if it werent' a drug infested burnout hole (from what i've heard).
Highschool
Oh the rough life of highschool.
damn i wish i was lounging by the pool.
backstabbing bitches
juggernaut jocks
two-face witches
and skanky snobs
roam the hallways day after day
the drama never settles down
sometimes it get to over bearing
just because someone frowns
on something someone is wearing
maybe someday it will stop
OR maybe that theory is just a big flop
by the end of the many years
and after quite a few beers
our endless summer is finally here. | | |
| Well, Well, Well-- time for another vent. It hasn't been THAT long since i last updated, but a lot has changed since then.
Right now my life basically sucks. I used to compare my life to, something like Laguna Beach. You know how it is, the rich families and luxurious items and what not. Well my life wasn't exactly even close to that, but i liked to think so because it is something that i always thought would bring happiness. Now that my mom is with another guy, dont' get me wrong, he's completely cool and everything, but still she is with a different guy. And my dad barely having enough money to buy groceries after paying all of the bills. this sucks. i was never used to living like this. my standard of living has plummeted to WAY DOWN, and some people still might say, oh well he has no idea how it feels and he is spoiled. well fuck you. i'm living off of myself now. this whole divorce thing really showed me how petty and greedy people really are. AND i also realized something else that i think will teach me something for the rest of my life. i'll never really know the true feeling of being happy for more than 5 minutes. to me, being happy is something that you get whenever you have no worries, nothing is bothering you, you aren't thinking about any regrets, and you aren't thinking about what is to come. you're just there. just there in that moment being yourself and being happy...
i've finally come to realize...that i never will be that.
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| Wow, how long has it been since i last updated? I think i'm going to
start doing this more cause i definately like it more than myspace now,
P.S. I don't use that anymore!! Well it seems that Xanga has changed, and consequently enough, so has my life, so here i go:
Well things haven't changed that much i guess, but
school has started again, oh yay. Wonnnnnnnnderful. I guess it's not
that bad, if there wasn't people. haha i guess that would defeat the
purpose of going to school, but in my personal life, my parents finally
divorced. All of their "temporary seperations" got me prepared for this
and i actually was kinda glad it happened. So yeah, that's kinda weird?
but oh well deal with it. Umm, i don't really want to go into detail so
i'm not gonna. But the thing i wanna talk about now, is parents.
Me and my dad never really got a long that well...i mean yeah it was
the normal father, son realshionship with it's odd moments here and
there. But now that i'm living with my dad for the time being, i can't
stand him anymore. Everything he does just bugs the shit out of me. I'm
forcing my self everytime i step in the door from school not to flip
out on him. And with the growing pressure of homework it is getting
even worse day after day. Him saying that he knows what it is like to
be a teenager bugs the fucking hell out of me. Yeah he does but he
doesn't know what it is like to be a teenager in todays society. I mean
yeah it can't be THAT
different, but it's enough. It's pretty sad, but i guess i see myself
growing up already. My dad still thinks i'm a kid. and still likes to
tell the jokes that he did whenever we were 10. i've been forcing
laughs out for 5 years now.But i have my sister here to go through it
all with me... But i can't really complain cause i'd rather him being
acting like an ass that a dickhead. Cause' my dad has a horrible
temper. And it just makes me want to get up and move right then and
there whenever he gets in his "moods". But i guess he is trying his
best and i can't say a word about it.
As soon as i get my drivers liscene (spelling?) i'm outta here. so many
people say that, but i actually mean it. As soon as i get them it's
like growing wings. I can finally do whatever i want. I mean, living
under someone else's roof is good and bad at the same time. And another
thing to go along with my freakin' parents is my friends. I've lost so
many summer freindships ever since school started again. It sucks so
bad. I had so much fun over my summer. I stayed in Adrian and hung out
with everyone that came and went. It was awesome, but now that school
has started again, it just sucks cause' a lot of people forget us
Adrain folk ...well i guess i'm done bitching and what not, i gotta study cultures
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